Journey

My 8a.m. class journey... 

The journey starts at 6.15 when everything is quiet and dark... Thank God for street lights and my tiny little torch light... Walking as quickly as possible, and at the same time being very aware of my surrounding... I pass by this little forest look-a-like...
** Is there anyone around?

** Are there any motorcycle hiding behind the corner?

** Could there be a snake coming out of the bush?

Holding on tightly to my pepper spray on one hand and a torch light on another.... And having a blade at the side pocket of my bag that I could easily reach... Every sound makes my heart beats faster... Insects making music... Sounds from cars and motorcycles passing by... That five minutes walk to the bus stop feels like how Jae-Seok (from Running Man) would have felt after a close escape during their hide-and-seek challenge... "Feels like my life is shorten by 10 years"... [exaggerated]

Haha...

Was thinking of that experience... and these verses came...

Psalm 119:105 - You word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path...

John 14:6 - Jesus say "I am the way, the truth and the life"

The journey doesn't really matter if you know for sure the destination... Many months ago, I wander what would I do if I am faced with BIG challenges... Will I still hold on to my faith? I doubted... Maybe I should just lay low and avoid being the target of the devil... Maybe... But on the other hand, God hates lukewarm Christian... How le?

Thankfully, God being a faithful God reminded me of the destination... The assurance of the destination in Christ changes the scenario... A woman in labor can endure the pain of giving birth, knowing the destination -  a child brought forth to the world. Similarly, the journey doesn't matter as much if the destination is fixed. And what better destination is there, other than the destination in Christ? :)

Staying UP

It is always good to have breakthroughs in life... That 'all-things-are-possible' feeling is amazing! But one week has gone by... And another week past by... That feeling is slowly slipping away... The 'WOW' effect is no longer as strong as day one...

Now, there are 2 options:

Option 1: Get back to life as how it used to be as if nothing happened...
Or...
Option 2: Fight on, continuously hold on to His promise and never let go.

Option 1 is an easier option... No need to fight... I can bare with that... After all, I used to be there before...
But, option 2 is one which will see change... Uncomfortable, feeling out of place, tedious, but the result is often better.

I decided I'm gonna stick with option 2... HE has done so much for me, and I'm not gonna let it go down the drain just because I wanted an easier path.

Little Destiny Zoe Oh and her family taught me this important lesson today: To fight on till the very end regardless of circumstances! This warrior princess strive hard just to breathe... I can definitely do more with the life that I have.

Newness...

Initially, it felt like I have lost a lot...

But in just one week plus, I have received much more than what I've lost.
The physical things...
The documents...
The friendship...
The love...
The care...

... is so much more that what is taken away from me. And above all that, I have deeper relationship with the God of POWER, the God of LOVE, and the God of SOUND MIND.

 The negative, God has turn it into the positive for me... A new learning curve, a new way of seeing things, a new trust in Him, a new level of faith, and a new hope in Him :)

Reviving the blog...

At least till my semester reopen...

Personally, one of the best way to express my thoughts is through writing. I'm not some super writer who have impressive vocabulary, or the best sentence structure, or even the most organized flow of thoughts... But, writing helps me see things in the right perspective.

Write... Write... Write...

Well, if you have not known, I pick up the basic to Photoshop during the past semester. It was rewarding to see my artwork printed, and even more rewarding to know that I have pick up a new skill during the semester... So, the question now is 'What's next?'

More creative design stuff? Hmmm... Or should I take up some art and craft? Card making? Origami? Or something cooler like latte art? Afterall, I love coffee... And it will be nice to not just enjoy coffee but make beautiful looking coffee... Or maybe I should just pick up martial art simply to give me that sense of security? Hmmm...

I really have no idea... But let's see...

Till then, chao :)

In one day...

It was supposed to be my last day of exam...
It was supposed to be a day of celebration after a long 2 weeks of ups and downs...
It was supposed to be FREEDOM!

BUT...
Things doesn't always go my way...
With one hour of nap, I prepared and left home for my last paper for the semester...
And my bag was snatched meters away from home by guys on 4 motorcycles...
My spectacles was missing the struggle... I am as good as blind.
My mobile phone + keys + wallet were all taken together with the bag... I have nothing left.

Stranded. Alone. In shock.
And till now, everytime I close my eyes, I can see the whole incident playback in front of me.
I have no idea whether will I even be able to walk on that alley again. Or how am I going to uni when the semester starts.

BUT...
Through this, I know I've made some of the most amazing friends here in CHCKL... Facebook messages, emails, tweets flooded my comp, offering help even before I mention what happened. And I can't express how #grateful I am to have them. They came to rescue me, they drove me to the police station, to the hospital, pay for everything, lend me money... That is just to name a few... Thank you, my friends... What would I do without you all...

Through this, I learn the meaning of the sacrifice of praise. How tough it was to still offer up praise in the midst of all the pain and lost... In the Bible was a man named Job, who everything he had was taken away from him in just 1 day, and the first thing he did was to stop everything and worship God (Job 1:20-21). Well, I wish I could say I did just that, but it wasn't. I struggled. Fear is just everywhere... But slowly, fear turn into worship. It was probably the toughest worship ever! It was all worth it to know that I didn't bow down to the devil and be upset with God. #grateful

Through this, I appreciate my family more... My dad took off from work, drove all the way from JB-KL with my mum to see h ow I am and help solve some of the problems. They drove me to uni to summit the police report, replace my specs, replace my SIM card, and make arrangement to try to replace everything which was taken away from me... As if that is not enough, they drove me back from KL-JB on the same day, make my bed, prepare everything so I am comfortable eventhough they are really tired. And how could I not mention my brother who called, and called and called to make sure I'm OK... Thank you. #grateful

Through this, I can't thank God enough for his protection. If my earthly father would do all that for me, how much more my heavenly Father (Matthew 7:9-11). What could have happened if it is not for His hands which guards over me... Thank You, Abba Father...

When things don't turn out the way it should be...

I HATE IT!!!

It robs my sleep... I'm restless, I am tired, I am frustrated, I am annoyed, I can't focus.
I felt like quitting.

Nothing seems to work.

BUT....

He is Faithful.

He loves.

He cares.

He says "I can".

He encourages.

He never quit.

For that, I keep on going. Thank You, Daddy God :')

If I have lots and lots and lots of money...

This would be my dream house:

A three story bungalow by the seaside... With a roof top infinity pool, and a helipad... 

All fully designed by myself (but for now, it shall be pictures taken everywhere from Google ;p)

-> Different corners of the living room...

-> For the bedrooms

-> The study room

-> The changing room

-> Storage space

-> Cafe / bar

That's all for now... Remember, it is an "IF" post... But how I wish...

P/s: In a day night-dreaming mode... So ignore me, and let me dream! And it's 3.20AM... Oops... I should really be dreaming now...