My idea of cute guys :D

No. 3 in my list:

No. 2:

And my fav:

Summary: I like weird guys :P

Adding on...
Miss one from the list...
(I just love that feather like thing in his hair :p)

Mummy, I love U :)

I just finish watching Freaky Friday for one of my Psych assignment stuff...

'My mum is the strictest mum of all!', '
'She has no life!'
'I can't go out with my friends'
'She don't understand me!'

Well, those are the common 'complaints' we made of our mum... Yea, I am guilty as well... Sometimes we don't understand each other... Sometimes we get on each other's nerve. And sometimes, we argue.

But, one thing remain:
She is my mum. And I love her.

I recalled what my Pastor once said: Mothers used to be daughters before. They used to be cool and happening before they have us. They don't nag before they have us.

So yeah, my mum is my mum, and none can take her place. She is special, and I love her :)

Gong Xi, Gong Xi!!!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's the time of the year where we Chinese look out for... Ang pows, new clothes, pineapple tarts, butter cookies, steamboats, steam fish, pork, etc, etc...

This year, I am looking forward to this Festive season as usual... But it's gonna be different for my family and I... We will be spending it at my home... JOHOR BAHRU!!!!!!!! Yes, I'm from Jay Bee... But usually we spend it somewhere else... So this CNY will be our family moments. Since moving out to study, it always feel good to be H.O.M.E..

CNY is more than all those glorious food and big red packets mentioned earlier. It's a family moment! This festive season, remember our family (sounds like some Petronas ads) :)

And here's an Eu Yan Sang's ad that warms my heart:

And of course, how can CNY be without some CNY songs:

Gong Xi, Gong Xi to all my family and friends!!!

Darkness vs. Light

I believe everyone has their own fear, and maybe even fears.

Fear Factor sees individuals fighting with their own fear to earn themselves a prize. Eating weird food, jumping of high places, sitting in tanks of insects and reptiles... Often I ask, is it all worth it? Will you do it?

My answer: NO!!! I am very sure I will not do it... It's cool watching other people going through those fearsome experience, but I will not want to be the one in their shoes... Well, the prize is great, but not enough to get me anywhere close to wanting to try it.

Fear Factor don't just happen on TV. It happens in our everyday lives also... Maybe not physically having to go through those situations, but everyday, fear will stare at our face... In our decision making, in our self esteem, in our relationships, in our finances... Basically, EVERYTHING! Those physical fear, we can try to avoid them. But there are many other fears which we can't run away from. And being a prisoner of fear is definitely NOT fun.

But I am thankful to have a God who loves me, and have given me the weapon to come out of the prison of fear. He is the Light and all darkness will be cast out when He is present... I am learning to walk out of the prison of fear into His light.

Mandarin and me... When the song turns into worship...

I guess not many people know that I can't read and write Mandarin until I tell them so... Well, I must say I am thankful to be able to speak Mandarin at least... Though, I must admit how I dreaded Mandarin classes since I was young...

Mandarin class experience for me was BAD! Till today, all I remembered from my extra Mandarin classes were getting whack on my hands for the mistakes from some spelling test equivalent. And if I remembered correctly, I would cry and wail (exaggerated) in class, developing a total hatred for the teacher... Totally dreaded class... Plus they were EXTRA class.

And since then, I have never been interested in picking up the language... The only time I would use it is with my relatives...  And I pride myself being brought up in an English family. Never really understood why Chinese school students are forced to memorize phrases or even the entire essays... Or the bucket loads of homework... Back then, I will just laugh them off, thinking that that must be the worst way of studying languages.

Well, things change when I enter secondary school... I sat next to a Chinese Ed student... Came in class, and the first time she spoke to me was in Mandarin... Oh no!!!!!!!! I thought I was doomed... But as I get to know her, I was amazed that she is also good in Malay and English!!!!  Her mum is a BM lecturer, and her English was flawless... That was when, those stereotype that I build since young starts to collapse. I started speaking Mandarin occasionally... And I guess that has contributed to my Mandarin today... Not something that anyone should be proud of, but definitely something I will be grateful to have.

So, why this random post? 
It is because I just came back from a CNY CG which was conducted all in Chinese... It was tough... Leading Worship in English was OK, but when it needs to be done in Mandarin, it was super duper hard. First, I need to depend on my best friend Google Translate to help me come up with Han Yu Pin Yin... Then listen to the song over and over again... And yet not able to memorize the lyrics... Next, I need to deliberately force myself to memorize the lyrics, though I don't quiet understand half of it... And at last, I need to gather every fiber of courage within me and speak it out (hoping that I don't embarrass myself along the way). The last step has got to be the hardest... Was debating within myself whether should I say something? Or should I just keep quiet?

But thankfully, it was over... Wouldn't say that it was my best Worship leading, but definitely grateful to God for showing up (even though I kinda screwed up in the beginning with so much going in my head). Learnt the most important lesson in Worship... It's not about our ability in singing, or our voice, etc... But the attitude of our heart. Worship is the condition of our heart. When we reached chorus, when we sang 'Shen shen ai Ni Yesu, Shen shen ai Ni Yesu, Wo ai Ni chaoyue sheng ming chong yiqie', that was it! Not the Chinese which I am not familiar with, but rather me singing with all my heart that I love Him, and I love Him, and I love Him. That was when the song turns into worship.

... That was when the song turns into worship :)

The Drama Addict in Me

Yeah... It's me again :)
Well, I am in the mood for writing, I write... After all, it's my blog... And I can do whatever I want with it (as long it stays within the boundary of the law) ;p

Was asked this question in one of those self intro thingy in a new class: What is your hobby?

It used to be easy -> SLEEP!
However, in the pass few years, I somehow discover that it's not really the thing I wanted to do... So after a few years, this question comes out again today...

And my answer...

Watch drama series!!! Yes!!! It's what I LOVE to do!!!
- NCIS, CSI (NY, Miami, Las Vegas), Criminal Minds, Nikita, Lie To Me, ...
- Grey's Anatomy, House, ...
- Glee, ...
- Masterchef, Junior Masterchef, ...
- The Amazing Race, Survivor, ...
- American Idol, So You Think You Can Dance, ...

Yesss!!! That's a good gauge on how many series I am following at the moment... And yea, I follow them on a weekly basis... Or whenever they are out, I will watch them!!! Haha... And, I am one proud addict :D

Wander why the list consists of all English series?
I'm not against Taiwanese or Hong Kong drama series... It's simply because I can't read Chinese and have 0% knowledge on Cantonese... Else, I would have added in Forensic Heroes into the list... So if you read this, and know where can I get an English subbed version of it, do let me know. You will be very much loved and appreciated ;p

Breathe in, breathe out...

Life can be pretty nerve wracking at time...
People can annoy you, and you can be frustrated at yourself.

Between the two, the latter is the tougher one. It challenges you. You doubt your own talent and gifts... You question your purpose and your intention for doing something. Occasionally, you try your best to push the blame on others, and sometimes, you simply break down and Que Sera Sera, whatever will be, will be.

And this sort of stuff don't just happen once a day... It happens all the time...

My way out is to breathe in and breathe out... Maybe whatever will be, will be... But, the fact that I am still breathing means it's not over yet... And for that, I live :)

Taken from http://cottontreeherald.com/419/breathe-out-first

A Verse that Change My Life

2 Corinthians 13:5 (TLB)
Check up on yourselves. Are you really Christians? Do you pass the test? Do you feel Christ's presence and power more and more within you? Or are you just pretending to be Christians when actually you aren't at all?

2012 - I know I want more and more and more of Your presence and power.

A Day to Remember - 060112

Today is the day...

God, I am sure I love You more than I ever did before...
And I am sure of how You have always love me.
You never fail to turn up.
In fact, You have always been there...
Always...

Your presence is overwhelming.
You make me want more of You.
You assure me every moment that You are with me.
I love You, and I love You and I love You...
More today than I ever did before.

Thank You, Daddy God :)