"Why is my Christian life constantly on a roller coaster?"
This has been a question I have constantly been looking for answers... One moment, I'm this faith-filled Christian who trust God. On other moment, I can question and doubt if God is really present in my life.
“But in a great house there are not only vessels of gold and silver, but also of wood and clay, some for honor and some for dishonor. Therefore if anyone cleanses himself from the latter, he will be a vessel for honor, sanctified and useful for the Master, prepared for every good work.”
II Timothy 2:20-21
As Christians, the Bible liken our lives as vessels which should be used for honor.
Ps. Andy Harrison at Planetshakers Awakening taught us that as vessels (or containers), we are created for the purpose of carrying the presence of God... If the container is filled with other stuffs, it loses it's original purpose. And sometimes, this container can be broken. And he ended the session reminding us that our savior Jesus Christ was once a carpenter and he can fix broken vessels.
Today (during the worship and prayer time), I came to realize that my vessel has many cracks on them, and it's contantly leak out stuff. And this vessel need to be fixed quickly. As a tumbler which is leaking, it annoys its user and causes much frustration and could even lead to anger (if it wets some important document).
In church, I can be filled with the presence of God... But because the vessel is leaking, it's easy to be frustrated and angry at little things which come my way. And down the road, the vessel unknowingly is carrying anger, frustration, insecurities and fears which was initially supposed to carry the presence of God. But on Sunday, the vessel is reset to its original purposes... I confess my sin, and God's presence fill me again... And not too long later, the whole cycle repeat itself and the leaking gets worse.
Frustrating. Draining.
And the solution is to come to the best carpenter Himself. He touched me, He patched up the holes, He filled-in the cracks... And when the vessel is fixed, He fill it with His presence.
And this vessel has been restored. It can be used effectively again.
God is the ultimate restorer of my life!
