Tuesday, 30 July 2013
Crazy again? :D
I used to dream of trying crazy stuff... Sky diving, bungee jumping, crazy roller coaster, paint ball, water sports just to name a few... You get the picture...
But today i question myself...
If I'm to stand at the cliff of the bungee jump, or on a plane somewhere in the sky, will I jump?
Unfortunately, I couldn't say 'Yes'...
I'll still love to do those stuff, but...
Today perhaps I'll need someone to push me off the cliff...
I'll need someone to kick me off the plane...
What has happened? Where has the 'adrenaline-seeking' side of me gone to?
Have I really aged that much? I wander...
Maybe it's not too late to be 'crazy' again :D
Friday, 28 June 2013
With all I am...
Jesus I believe in You
Jesus I belong to You
You're the reason that I live
The reason that I sing with all I am
I remember on one of the days in 2011...
This is the song that help me out from my depressed state...
This is the song that help me realized that I am His, and I'm not over yet...
This is the song that help me continue believing...
This is that song...
He has been faithful,
And He is my reason to sing with all I am :')
Jesus I belong to You
You're the reason that I live
The reason that I sing with all I am
I remember on one of the days in 2011...
This is the song that help me out from my depressed state...
This is the song that help me realized that I am His, and I'm not over yet...
This is the song that help me continue believing...
This is that song...
He has been faithful,
And He is my reason to sing with all I am :')
Tuesday, 28 May 2013
Hello again :)
Monthssssssssss have past since my previous post...
Gonna pen down some of my thoughts as part of my 'climbing up a tree to make sure I'm chopping down the right jungle'... And here it is:
1. It's one year and one month since the incident of my bag being snatched... Many may have forgotten about the incident, but it was only recently that I'm able to say "I think I got over it"... It took me one whole year of "What if someone snatch my bag" and "What if I'm killed as I walk out from the house" and "What if someone has been following me and is waiting to rob me"... I tried my best living on as usual, going to uni as usual, trying to be bolder, fighting all the negative thoughts... But it was one encounter with God that changes it all.
Well, the breakthrough came when I became aware of my God who is in control of all things... Knowing that He will walk with me even if I'm to be robbed again... Or even if I may be killed... Or whatever it may be sets me free. Funny how it took me so long to come to this revelation... But, learning again that many things are out of my control, and I'll still be OK regardless of the circumstances allow me to let go and let God. He's the ONE in control over my life and I can trust Him :).
2. I'm finally moving to my third year of degree!!! Started my third year in Psychology recently, choosing my preference for thesis supervisors felt surreal... At last!
The past two years have opened my eyes to the many fields of Psychology, some I love and many more that are not my cup of tea...
One arm of psychology that I realize that I enjoy (after joining the degree program) is human services... Going out to provide community services to children give a sense of purpose. Never a fan of children in the past, and similarly today can be nerve wracking for me to go to these homes. BUT, seeing the needs and the lacks these children are facing called out to me... I remember clearly a 6y.o. Myanmar refugee who could not do her ABC because of her learning disorder... And more so the joy and satisfaction that I felt when she was finally able to identify correctly 'blue', 'green', 'red' and 'yellow' bears. It was worth the 3-4 hours spent with her. Well, the only drawback of wanting to work for these homes is the pay... Brought the idea of working for these organizations to my mum, and I got the 'Are you crazy?' face from her... So yeah, it's not workable...
Entering my third year reminded me again of 'Why psychology?'. I still love data collection and analysis... I still love my Excel spreadsheets and how things can be organised... And I LOVE SPSS!!! I love inserting data, running statistical tests and reading the results... As weird as it may sound, this is the reason for me to be here. Still trying to look for more career options for this interest of mine... Other than market research, any other industry where I can do this for a living? Let me know if you have the answer k :)
ONE final year, and I'll be done and hopefully that will be the end of me being asked the question "Oo... How come you are still studying?"
Gonna pen down some of my thoughts as part of my 'climbing up a tree to make sure I'm chopping down the right jungle'... And here it is:
1. It's one year and one month since the incident of my bag being snatched... Many may have forgotten about the incident, but it was only recently that I'm able to say "I think I got over it"... It took me one whole year of "What if someone snatch my bag" and "What if I'm killed as I walk out from the house" and "What if someone has been following me and is waiting to rob me"... I tried my best living on as usual, going to uni as usual, trying to be bolder, fighting all the negative thoughts... But it was one encounter with God that changes it all.
Well, the breakthrough came when I became aware of my God who is in control of all things... Knowing that He will walk with me even if I'm to be robbed again... Or even if I may be killed... Or whatever it may be sets me free. Funny how it took me so long to come to this revelation... But, learning again that many things are out of my control, and I'll still be OK regardless of the circumstances allow me to let go and let God. He's the ONE in control over my life and I can trust Him :).
2. I'm finally moving to my third year of degree!!! Started my third year in Psychology recently, choosing my preference for thesis supervisors felt surreal... At last!
The past two years have opened my eyes to the many fields of Psychology, some I love and many more that are not my cup of tea...
One arm of psychology that I realize that I enjoy (after joining the degree program) is human services... Going out to provide community services to children give a sense of purpose. Never a fan of children in the past, and similarly today can be nerve wracking for me to go to these homes. BUT, seeing the needs and the lacks these children are facing called out to me... I remember clearly a 6y.o. Myanmar refugee who could not do her ABC because of her learning disorder... And more so the joy and satisfaction that I felt when she was finally able to identify correctly 'blue', 'green', 'red' and 'yellow' bears. It was worth the 3-4 hours spent with her. Well, the only drawback of wanting to work for these homes is the pay... Brought the idea of working for these organizations to my mum, and I got the 'Are you crazy?' face from her... So yeah, it's not workable...
Entering my third year reminded me again of 'Why psychology?'. I still love data collection and analysis... I still love my Excel spreadsheets and how things can be organised... And I LOVE SPSS!!! I love inserting data, running statistical tests and reading the results... As weird as it may sound, this is the reason for me to be here. Still trying to look for more career options for this interest of mine... Other than market research, any other industry where I can do this for a living? Let me know if you have the answer k :)
ONE final year, and I'll be done and hopefully that will be the end of me being asked the question "Oo... How come you are still studying?"
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